Moving Out

I had a revelation tonight before going into work.

Everyday I do the exact same thing. Every week is exactly the same. I go to classes during the week, I kill time by watching far too much VH1 and on the weekends I usually frequent a bar or the TKE house. I have spent the last three and a half years living out this same routine and I have nothing to show for it except an education, and a few drunken stories.

I need a change. I went from leading a fairly boring life in high school, directly into a fairly boring life in college. Now don't get me wrong, I am glad that I went to college and it has been an experience to say the least. But I never really had a chance to be wreckless, make bad decisions, and just live life for the moment. Since high school, it's all been about the future, and all I have from that stressful way of thinking is an ulcer and a series of illnesses.

I need to get out of Iowa. Out of Minnesota. Go someplace where no one knows me. Be broke and live life in the moment. Experience things I have only seen in movies. I don't want to live a planned life where there are no suprises. At the rate I'm going, when I get out of school, I am going to get a job in a corporate office, live in a cubicle and continue the same boring, everyday routine. That is the LAST thing that I want.

I have always been afraid to try new things and go some place that is unfamiliar by myself. But I cannot imagine continuing to live a life that is planned out to a T. But then I think about my education. My dad has spent a pretty penny on my education, and the last thing I want to do is waste it. I have also never really been completely on my own. I have always had my parents right by my side to help me out in any situation.

Maybe getting out of my everyday and away from everyone that I know will help me break this cycle. Maybe I'll go to Amsterdam, LA, Australia, or New York.

I would love to travel around with a touring band. That would be the best escape.